Solstice 

Bloody stupid day. Fucking lack of sleep. And I even know why I can't sleep. I'm afraid of 'wasting a weekend'. So even when I wake up too early (which is bad enough in itself), I don't go back to sleep because I'm so obsessed with having to 'do something', that I get up. And then feel like shit the entire day. Usually ending up taking a nap in the afternoon/evening, which doesn't really help, just 'wastes the weekend' even more, and leaves me feeling even shittier for the night.

So today's the solstice. I should be celebrating, but I'm not. Because I feel shitty as per reason described above.

Fuck.