By the Sea... 

One thought... That's all it took, one thought.

I suppose I should've expected it. It never lasts. But I still hope, even though I like saying that all the hope is long gone. Even though I believe it.

Why do I keep trying? I really worked on it this time. I really did. And it all came crashung down in one moment. The unavoidable moment, really, because distractions are just that: distractions. They can be fun, but in the end, all they do is make the return to 'normal' more painful.

I've known what the solution is for a long time. I only need to make it happen.

I'll give myself one more try before that, though. There's no point in leaving that avenue untried.